it’s all happening

it’s a weird feeling having to let go having biological children but, ultimately, who cares! We want to be parents. Biological or not, we will love these babies with all we have in us! We signed up with a wonderful embryo adoption agency while also working with our clinic. We were given 2-3 profiles everyContinue reading “it’s all happening”

our next book title is…..

We have several books on our “fertility journey bookshelf” and have officially closed another one. We had nine perfect, genetically normal embryos and not one of those embryos resulted in a live birth. based on this and after lots of thinking/praying, we have decided not to do another egg retrieval. Egg retrievals are VERY hardContinue reading “our next book title is…..”

staying hopeful in the not yet

There’s not really a certain period of time that should go by before you decide you are ready to move forward again. Is it a month? 6 months? A year? There’s not a right answer because everyone is so different. For me, I go by how I feel. Am I ready to get back onContinue reading “staying hopeful in the not yet”

down but not out

in the six months since I’ve written, a lot has happened. recapping from the last post, our 6th transfer failed (the first with our surrogate) possibly due to an embryo problem and possibly due to a subchorionic hematoma. august 28, 2024 – we transferred the most perfect embryo. we kept saying this was the “littleContinue reading “down but not out”

As Staind sang, it’s been a while…

Long time, no writing. It’s been a whirlwind the past few months.  Since my last update, we’ve been through two more transfers and another miscarriage. I keep saying this but I never EVER thought I’d have to go through this physical and mental heartbreak. We are exhausted. I AM EXHAUSTED. My body has been throughContinue reading “As Staind sang, it’s been a while…”

When The Rug Gets Ripped Out From Underneath You

The thought of getting pregnant and carrying a child full term seems so easy. Until it’s not. So many people do it. All the time. Every day. I can too right? See the thing is, when you have an issue conceiving, you get to learn wayyyyy too much about the reproductive process. The very smallContinue reading “When The Rug Gets Ripped Out From Underneath You”

Three babies. One year. Now what?

This month, August 2022, will be FOUR years that we’ve been trying to have a baby. Never in a million years did I think I’d still be talking about being childless. Never in a million years did I think I wouldn’t have a baby by the time I was 31. Never in a million yearsContinue reading “Three babies. One year. Now what?”