Author Archives: christathigpen

The definition of failure is lack of success and the omission of expected action. A failure is what I have felt like this past year. As we are coming up on the anniversary of our first transfer, I have all the emotions. This was the transfer that worked. The one where our levels were perfectContinue reading “It’s Not Happening This Time”

Mothers Day. To a lot of women, this is just a day to celebrate their mom. To celebrate being a mom. Receiving handwritten notes and perfectly imperfect colored pictures or crafts from daycare. Going to lunch and getting extra squeezes from your kids. Hearing an extra “I love you mom” when you don’t even haveContinue reading “Grieving and Celebrating Mother’s Day ….. it’s okay!”

Okay, so long story super short and catching up from the last several months… My second surgery went well. My RE had to go back in and clean my uterus because there was still “products of conception” leftover. Harsh terms but that is literally what my operative report says. The surgery went well and myContinue reading “Grief is real, but it gets better”

Written 2/4/22 Wow it’s been a long time since I’ve written. A lot has happened but also nothing. So we had a miscarriage, what’s next? Well, for those in the infertility world, it’s not as easy as “okay, now you’re good to try again at home!” It’s surgery after surgery, waiting after waiting, bloodwork afterContinue reading “Where do we go from here?”

This was not the post I had planned for today nor was it one that I wanted to write. I’ve been putting it off honestly. I had exciting posts, announcement posts, and this one isn’t that anymore. Today was supposed to be my “I’m pregnant” post. I’ll go through more details at a later dateContinue reading “God’s Not Done With Our Story Yet”

This might be a long one so be warned! February 25, 2021. The day we would finally meet with a fertility specialist. She was highly recommended and had great statistics (yes, I researched). With COVID still being around, this visit was a Telemed visit. We scheduled our zoom call and our ears were open toContinue reading “You might have a tumor…”

Whew, it’s been too long! If you’re new here, catch up from previous blog posts on our story here, here, and here! Where did I end the last one? Oh yeah, it’s me! I am the problem. My body, what I was made to do as a woman, is not working. Am I being dramatic?Continue reading “Hi, my name is Christa, and I can’t have babies.”

Picking up right where I left off. Read the previous post here. So, my ob/gyn never followed up, never ordered additional testing. This was in February 2019, six months into trying for a baby. My sister had just had a baby (although no stings yet, we were still technically REALLY early into the trying process).Continue reading “It’s Me…”

Back to my story – I know several of you have been wondering why I haven’t posted more about “our story” and are waiting to know more about us so here you go! If you missed it, let’s get you caught up from a previous post here – we got married in April 2017. BeganContinue reading “Pushed Closer or Pulled Apart”

Infertility. Such a taboo word. But why is that? Am I ashamed that my body isn’t doing what a woman’s body was intended to do? Have I done something in the past that I am now being punished for? Did the words that somebody spoke against me actually come true? I know I shouldn’t beContinue reading “Taboo Topic | Infertility”